Sunday, April 02, 2006
The problem with me.
The problem I see in myself is the fact that I set my goals to high. I see what I want and it may be at the bottom of the ocean, but that won't stop me from wanting and trying to get it. I don't think about how. I guess that is my biggest problem. Now that I have a job, enrolling in school, being a dad, having a wife, and planning for a bright tomorrow, how do I do it all? First I have resolved myself that this is what I want more than anything; but then what? My whole life I have just let life happen around me, I didn't plan, I didn't think ahead, and I have some how come out alright. How that happened is a question I don't have an answer for. To be quite honest I wasn't the best of guys before I met back up with Jessica and Brad. Now, I have turned that part around, but I'm at a loss on how to live a fruitful life. I see where I want to be, but I don't see the path. To be honest with everyone here, I'm a little tired of people thinking I'm always happy and in a good mood because, I'm not. I'm not on the inside. I do keep a lot of things inside and away from the world. I figure that they are my problems and no one else really wants to hear it. How ever I am wrong, and here I am spilling my doubts and worries here to you fine folks. This isn't the only problem I have with myself, but we'll take one at a time here. I guess the question is: How does life happen?
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I sure wish I knew the answer to that. I see my friends all making goals and reaching them by facing each day with back breaking effort and down right hard work. And eventually they all get what they have worked for. I struggle with reaching my goals, and with setting my goals too low. I am tired of chosing the path of least resistance, but sometimes I just don't know how to reach for the stars.
Well, all we need to is meet in the middle. I know it takes work, that's not what I'm asking. I want to take charge of my life, instead of just letting it happen.
Killjoy, your answer may be in our own words. Just live life as it comes, and everything will turn out alright. It has already,so if it ain't broke, don't fix it. We know you're not always happy, we've read your blogs. :)
Taking charge of your life, is finding confidence in your choices. Knowing that,as a friend told me, there is no wrong or right decisions, it's what you make of those desicions that matter.
I applaud your desire for action, man. Getting in a rut sucks. I think both you and Jess have already made the better more positive choices. As you said - you turned your life around, you're involved with Abbey, You have decided to go back to school, yall have a great plan for the future with the bed and breakfast. You and Jess have made decisions of where you want to go. You laid out your path together - your destiny - whatever. Now you do the actions and try to keep faith in those choices you made.
You asked how life happens?
My guess and observation is
One day or moment or step at a time.
Look how yall inspired me. I have a second degree and 3 years of sobriety.
thanks brad.
Was that a sarcastic thank you?
:)
no. you are a true friend. and i want to thank you for that.
awww. how sweet....
blech. you're killn' me here.
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